Endorphins running low today

self loathing
for selfishness
thoughts of pity
the door is locked
some how the key is lost
no windows for sunlight
no sun no growth
speechless
exploding with emotion
scared
lonely
confusion and frustration
it gets harder as time goes by
the scar tissue thicker and thicker
sadness becomes anger
self depreciating
i finally found a way to release my passion
the pressure gets overwhelming
sometimes i am blinded by it
it is so delicate
smooth
sometimes i feel selfish because of it
cause i dont share it
i dont know how to share it
without getting a shockwave
without fear
vulnerability
the faster we go the weaker we are
the fall is much more painful
i know part of the pleasure is
the ability to have vulnerability
when things are going too fast
it is hard to make
sound judgement
you say yes, because you are not sure
what is next
the opportunity may be all you got
fear, fear, fear
what a powerful emotion